Moment of Silence

It made no difference that Paxton and Susanne were at home, Paxton still woke up gagging and vomiting. Thankfully, it still seemed to only be associated with when he first woke up for the day.

Paxton was only up for a short time before wanting to go back down for a nap. He had already slept until after 10:00am, but he obviously didn't think that it was enough shut eye for one evening. Paxton slept so long once he had been put down that Susanne actually had to wake him up for his 2:00pm therapy appointment.

Today, they were going to work on motor skills. Susanne was excited because she learned some new tricks. She was shown how to work with Paxton on a stability ball. The different techniques and movements she was taught encouraged him to use his core. He was really working hard on righting himself and he did wonderful with lifting his head. He did seem to tire after about thirty minutes of hard work.

Susanne could not believe how quickly the day passed her by. She had jumped right back on the band wagon without hesitation. Her phone calls and e-mails seemed to start the moment her eyes opened. She couldn't believe how busy she was and she hadn't even been back in town for more than 24 hours. It was crazy how her "to do list" was neverending. It was nice to be back at home or better known as her "office" because she had access to everything she needed to complete the things on her list.

Susanne and Paxton played together once he woke up after his afternoon nap. Susanne continued to enjoy laughing in Paxton's presence just to get him to laugh in response. It was the cutest thing ever and it brought joy to her heart. Also, Paxton had been trying to form different sounds. He had been working on the "M" sound for the last few days. He was intrigued by his own voice. It was so interesting to witness the transition from pointless cooing to mimicking sounds to intentional back and forth conversation to attempts to actually form sounds that made sense. Paxton was growing up right before her eyes.

The most memorable part of the day was that Susanne had officially used the last of her stored breast milk. Yes...that's right people, both deep freezers were completely empty of all milk. Susanne thought that this day would never come. She was expecting to be feeding Paxton breast milk until he was a teenager with how the freezers looked months ago. Now there was no evidence that it was ever even there at all. This was such a bittersweet moment. It was sad to see that there was no more, but it was awesome that Paxton was able to benefit from it for so long. What a monumental moment it was! It was so much so that Susanne felt that it deserved it's own moment of silence.................

Now she would depend on the pump and serve method. Whatever she made, Paxton would get right away. She was so glad that she had started transitioning Paxton a few weeks ago to his new concoction. He appeared to be handling the mixture of 50% formula and 50% fortified breast milk rather well. Susanne planned on continuing to pump as long as she continued producing. She was hoping that the fact that she was still incorporating some breast milk in each feeding that Paxton would still benefit from her antibodies. If science was right, any antibodies that Susanne had produced in response to the viruses she had been exposed to would then be transferred straight to Paxton for protection against getting sick. How awesome was that! So far it seemed to be working. Paxton had never had any flu or cold symptoms. According to Susanne's friends that had children, this was unheard of. Susanne was just thankful that he caught a break somewhere. That was the least that he deserved especially with all of the other medical issues that he was already having to deal with.