Round and Round We Go

Today, Susanne had a moment of weakness. She was feeling down on herself. Life had become a big pile of disappointment. Susanne and Scott were feeling like no matter how hard they worked, it wasn't hard enough. No matter how much money they made, they couldn't make ends meet. No matter how much they wanted to spend time together, there was always something standing in their way. Most importantly, no matter how much they wanted Paxton to be a healthy child, he was always going to battle with his ongoing medical issues. It made them deeply sad to think that he was going to have to fight to survive everyday for the rest of his life...however long that may be. Susanne was starting to question what was the greater purpose of it all. Why was life so difficult? She had always felt so blessed with such an awesome, supportive family. She had always surrounded herself with wonderful friends. She never really had many tragedies in her life, but now that felt like all that she experienced. Life used to be such a bright spot. She was always excited to see where the next road was going to take her. Now she lived in the moment, fearing the journey ahead. It just didn't feel like her situation was getting any better. Granted she had a lot to be thankful for, she still felt like there was no end in sight. It was almost as if she was stuck in a hamster wheel. She was constantly running round and round, but getting nowhere. She was working hard, expending a lot of energy, but not seeing that it was making a difference. Her faith in God was the only thing that made her push through everyday. It was the only glimmer of hope she had for the future. She believed that he had a greater plan in place for them that they just couldn't see at this moment in time. She was hoping she was right.